I'm tried of living under a microscope work wise.

Everyday I either get phone monitored or my credit applications are audited and I get screwed over things that are sooo fucking stupid I could spit.

And to top it off my co workers cheat and process non complicated apps and leave me stuck with the fraud applications that take extra long to process. Management does not even take notice. So my co workers who cheat get their bonus while the few of us who don't cheat get stuck with less processed credit apps at the end of the month and NO BONUS.

Why should I have to cheat just to get a bonus?!!? Its really unfair.

So I'm going to register for classes starting in the summer. I like the idea of doing Radiology Technology ...its a short program and it technical enough w/ science and math to keep me challenged. Plus with all the science credits that are required I can transfer them into a BA of Nuclear Technology program later down the line.

I just want out of dead end jobs....I'm too fucking smart to take this crap anymore.

Maybe it took being at the end of my thither to force me to make a decision about what kind of career I wanted to pursue.

Feeling very melancoly today.

I think that is has something to do with the fact that I cannot come up w/the money to pay my last sememter's tution and now I cannot register for any classes.

Now that I have a new car my budget is extra tight! So I'll be working overtime as much as I can this week. I still owe Val 50.00 for his xmas present and 210.00 from last month's rent. Not to mention the 100.00 I owe my mother. How depressing to owe everyone so much money.

I wish I had the nack for writting, then I could be productive doing something. But I have nothing that I feel passiontly about. I really like the idea of being an esectician (sp). I'm always making herbal skin care products and bath salt and scrubs. But can I really make a living doing that?

I hate the fact that I'm feeling depressed. So many people have it worse than I do. I don't want to seem ungreatful, I'm not ungreatful. I'm thankful for everything that I have. Really I am. I just feel like my life is totally pointless. I have not motivation to do anything at all and it really sucks.

It sucks feeling this way.

 

Beowulf is coming to the big screen! I can't wait. And it has Gerald Butler in it .....major plus!

Well, I'm still trying to decide what to do with my life and I must say I really am keen on graphic design.
So, that my be an options.
But on a grander scale...the question is still the same...what do I want to do? what is my purpose? I keep comimg back to the same idea and nothing else: ART!

So, I made one of my goals in the next few months to learn how to write grant proposals. The reason that I want to do this is because I really really really want to develope a Summer Arts Program for inner-city kids.

Arts meaning exposing them to: Classical Music, Painting, Sculpture, dance etc. Exposing kids to things that they would not normally have access to.

So, that's one of my goals this year, to have my program developed.

Not bad for a women who has only been awake for 20mins!

Sorry no spell checking or proof reading ...I'm late for work!!

Humanity ...where has it all gone?

Teens killing the homeless in Florida  

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I just imported some of my LJ entries so there may be some dups in my blog.

In other news, Angelina and Brad Having a baby?

Seriously, I don't know why I'm sooooo very put off by their relationship. They erk me -just as much as TomKat! 

I used to be a huge fan of Angelina (I luved how she adopted 2 kids of different races) but now I just think that she is some sort of viper. Most relationships that she has had she has been the "other women" and stolen her man.

Then there is Brad dumping his wife for a ready made family, If I were Jen I would be sooo very hurt.

Angelina is so pretty why? I hate that I dislike her so much now. She really really makes me want to puke. But she says she did not steal Brad from my cute adorable Jen. But really, I think that is a bowl of shit. Not that I know any different but ...I'm just not buying to story she's telling.

I really like my new car!

Since I needed one anyway, I might as well enjoy it, the bad part is that I'm soo broke.

1,000 down payment is a lot to a poor working gal like me LOL. So, my mom is really being cool about my lack of funds and so is my brother. SHe's taking me grocery shopping today and my brother is no bugging me about rent.

Damn, I can't spell why doesn't this blog come with a spell check?

Now that I spend less time a LJ I'm going to try to spruce the blog up a bit...add some links and mybe make some new blog friends.

My mood has been up and down of late, but I'm trying. I'm seriously thinking about finishing up my BS but I still owe 1.500 from last semester!! grrr.

But I have to do something right?

Last night I was in a very dark mood and I made this icon It was to large to use in my LJ whiched pissed me off. But I rather like it!

 

 

okay I'm totally bored so pleeeease give me something to do and ask me something LOL!

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